Eps 89- 我好累啊

Todae I play bball....I totalli no mood cuz I saw some ppl...lol...like I sae before to my close frens....one compare and another one criticise....wow I hated them man...even though I gt them tgt....wow I realli regret bringin them tgt lo....wtf....I seriously veri fed up wif this matter lo.....my personal things she go let....him hear....lol...hear liao I still have to endure his critics.....wah she still ask mi wan another piece to sing mah...lol....I alr dun wanna sae anything den still dare to ask mi wan another piece mah....lol....den she let mi angry for 3 times.....first she let him listen to my music....second she send his music to mi....somemore same song....WAH wtf rite....wat u wan....okok la I veri lousy he sing veri gd....he everithing better den mi k can liao mah....stop the fucking comparing will u....I m a human...lo I GT FREAKIN FEELINS......den the guy....he tot he veri close to mi....lol other ppl can sae wat they wan I dun care cuz they are close to mi....I kno they jkin....HU ARE U TO TEACH MI CROSSOVER.....and I dun wanna kno u de lo...is becuz I m her fren that's y....u 2 read liao wanna angry...watever I dun care....cuz to mi...u 2 are realli makin mi pissed liao.....and my limits are going to be reached.....if u wanna compare mi wif other things or other human or animal...pls dun k I hated to be compared....

Eps 88- Things are boring

Todae I wake up feeling everidae so sian and boring.....den want to msg her that time.....I rmb she ytd sae dun distract her.....and she is studyin everidae....so I dun kno when to msg her so that I wun distract her....so I din msg her in the end....I plannin nt to msg her till after O's bah....I have alot of things I wanna tell her....my recent bad things.....my recent gd things.....den I suddenly tink y tell her so much....she juz a fren mah lol...and y she muz listen....haiz sian I oso dunnno wat I m tokin la....lol....haiz haha tok to my frens haha some dun care...some listen liao den jiu listen lo.....some I oso dunno they wan to hear de mah....lol....so y bother to tell them.....and the things I wanna tell her is somethings that revolve ard some ppl la....onli her is nt from my grp de...I wan to her wat is her views....sometimes is the ppl that are nt ur age can tell u wat u tink is the best solutions.....but since she is havin her exams preparations den I wun tell her anything bah....haiz there goes my part time joker.....anyone wans to interview for it??? Gals onli thnks....LOL.....=)....my first emotion on my blog lol after 88 episode lol......well she change the way I m tokin cuz she is the first one that complain no commas, no fullstops, and no emotions....lol my sms la and all lol.....

Eps 87- I cut my hair lo.....

21st of July I cut my hair.....haha I have officially change my hairstyle haha.....tml there is this interview again by another modelin company lol....I sian alr haha but they sae need to bring a photo...lol haiz the salon oso din call mi one....haha sianzzzzz........this wk gt alot of things that made mi realli veri fed up lo....warn u all first ar...dun ever compare mi k for gd or bad I oso dun like cuz I will hate u de....I realli dun like ppl to compare mi wif others lo....cuz I feel that it's no meanin de lehz....haha I gt so much I wana sae but I dun feel like saying it here lehz I realli like the way mi and her tok lo....even if sometimes she forgt abt my things....even if she nv ask so much ques as I do.....even if she is busy and cant tok to mi.....she is person that can made mi laugh de lo....is REALLI LAUGH de lo....strange lehz....she wrote on my Cbox that she wun tok to mi anymore.....hmmmmm how come I.....dun feel any anger and confusion de lol.....maybe is becuz I kno the reason behind it.....shld I explain anything?? Maybe nt nw bah.....she havin her exams....dun wan her to be disturb by mi....

Eps 86- her, Her, HEr, HER

Lol haha I recently kno this siao siao de gal call BM....lol she veri crazy de haha.....kno her for 3 wks lo.....is like sms her alot la cuz she is VERI FUNNY and RANDOM cant stop tokin to her de lo.....I still dun kno how's her char like??? so I muz kno her longer see how.......I went out wif her from 11pm till like 8 something am de reach hme lol......u kno wat we did...we juz kept tokin lol....haha we can tok on msn from 10pm- 7 am lol....haha veri weird rite....ok dun ask mi y I din tok to u guys for so long....I dunno how to ans one.....lol.....she is the first person I tok so long on msn lo...lol haha tokin to her makes my dae haha no worries she is nt a substitute for anyone.....haha......and I wun rush anything cuz I still have no feelins towards her yet but in the future I can confirm that I will like her sooner or later....haha but there is still much more ppl and things I haven done yet so I cant juz focus on her lo....this is wat I tot of this time.....I learn alot of last exp.....and I learn alot in BBALL too....thnks to daryll hu teaches mi Crossovers....and fakes.....haha I m learnin tear drop shot tooo....by myslf haha....it's startin to be fun for mi le cuz it's excitin to crossover and made ppl anklebreak haha I wan to be a anklebreaker lol haha.......as for SJ.....I have put down the feelins for her le.....I dunno if we still can be frens cuz it juz doesnt seems rite anymore.....haha nw onli Zyang tok abt her in front of mi....Joyling and Joey they all dun tok abt her....haha I still concern abt her but juz as a fren haha like how I concern for my buddy and Yiling lo....and my other female and male frens haha....I hope tat her bf and her will live in bliss....as for mi I hope to finish wat I have start...all my dreams and hopes lo....

Eps 85- Studys are realli a borin work

LOL I chatted wif Miss Zhu till 7am in the mornin lol haha din feel tired cuz she is realli funnny and random haha........I like to tok to her.......cuz made mi go back to sec sch times haha.......den slept at 7am and 9am johnson called mi wake up haha but I told him I juz slp nia lehz so meet at 12 haha den cant play bball cuz rainin den we play da di for 3 hrs- 4 hrs like tat lol sibei lame ar.......we play open hand de lo haha no one play before rite haha.......den we went to play bball for a while and juz go hme cuz Joyling told mi that Joey ask mi to go XW and have dinner wif them lol.......den last min cancel haha den I reach hme bathe liao JIU Zzzzz till 2am haha.........lol den wake up check email la and all den kno tat mon is my ECS exams haha died liao lo haha somemore the MST no solutions de lo haha dunno how to study haha....hhaahaha lol......Stupid teacher......haha Everithing is restartin and life is back to normal......wah so fast holis over liao wor......I whole holis doin nth lo haha....

Eps 84- 自恋

说我爱你
从男人的心里是最难表达诚实的秘密
说你愿意
靠在我肩的你
是最难抗拒动人的回应
你扬起的嘴角
给我爱情的动力
弯弯的眼睛
藏不住你孩子气
看着我在你眼里
眼神是如此肯定
那就是我一直等待着美丽
我承认我爱上你的美
你的脸和你的眉
让我面对自己无法再自恋
oh baby 我承认我爱上你的美
你让全宇宙失眠
让我爱到像流星一样的坠
我才发现
看你泛红的脸
说出模糊的话语
我的心只听见你心里的回音
看着我在你眼睛
眼神是如此肯定
那就是我一直等待着美丽
我承认我爱上你的美
你的脸和你的眉
让我面对自己无法再自恋
oh baby我承认我爱上你的美
你让全宇宙失眠
让我爱到像流星一样的坠
我才发现
睡不能睡
脑海都是你画面oh
幸福帮我剪接你的笑脸
我承认我爱上你的美
你的美没有虚伪
让我爱你爱到忘了我是谁
oh baby因为你我爱上夜的黑
像搭着无人地铁
开向你为我设的专署路线
终于看见
我承认我爱上你的

This song is Show Luo de 自恋 lol I kno alot ppl will sae this song so old liao y the's pt of tellin u all nw rite.....haha when I heard this song and see the song de lyrics ytd that time......I ji tou feel that this song realli suit my situation rite nw......everi sentence everi word all sae out how I feel towards her.......everi sentence reminds mi of her.....well I m startin to forgt lo....I m happy I tink

Eps 83- 4th dae wifout contactin u

Todae is the 4th dae since I din msg u or tok to u on msn.........I still cant control myslf wantin to ask u how are u??? I din see u online for a few daes le..........I dun wanna tink of the worst so I juz wonderin how are u lo?? I kinda of like to eat lunch wif ppl, esp ppl that are trap in r/s probs........I like to hlp them...I like to hear and learn and give my views........and know abt r/s myslf........haha I like the sofa more lo.........I have eaten wif Chen Juan..........Joyling..........hu wanna be nxt haha...........ok I kno...u guys oso kno that I m nt being myslf...well I realli tried to put down cuz too much have happened on mi le.........too much till I onli can feel happiness lo and as for sadness...he may have taken a long vacation...I will be happy everidae de...dun ask mi if she is worth it...dun sae that she is nt as perfect as I tink...alot of things I dunno how sae but I kno she is worth it and I kno she is nt perfect cuz I m nt either...y wld I wan a perfect person when I m nt perfect...喜欢就是喜欢...我真的放不下也放不了...I realli tried u kno...I tot that if I din tok to her if I din see her pics ar I will gradually forgt this person bah but I cant...This few daes when I saw ppl that time esp nt veri tall de...I will tot I see her...I kno I kno I m tinkin too much...but I m nt tinking when it happened...it's like a natural reactions but I cant do anything...juz keep on tryin lo...haha wonderin y I like her so much yet I can stop tokin to her??? haha...Cuz I have 3 reasons:
1st...Is I dun wan her bf to check her hp and all la...cuz hp is realli veri private de stuff lo
2nd...Is I dun wan her to feel that I m naggy and annoying and all lo
3rd...Is I dun wanna her bf and her to quarrel becuz of mi anymore lo
Yup....all 3 reasons are how I can stop tokin to her lo

lol that dae wed ar we celebrate Chen juan's bd but in the end the mornin part onli mi and her.....lol lucky she ok wif it ar...tok to her lo...abt her bf and the recent things lo...den go play pool wif her haha saw deme...lol he tot Chen juan my gf lol...haha
den somemore I went out wif Joyling on Sat for Lunch session...and I saw my vocal teacher, Alex lol died liao lo he will ask if Joyling is my gf mah lol...hmmmm btw I tok to Joyling abt her bf and recent things lo...hmmm lots of ques are thrown ard la...lol well wat can I sae I LOVE LUNCH SESSION HAHA....seriously hu is nxt haha....hu gt r/s prob...my consultant fees are juz nt cheap haha...jkin hehe I onli hope I can help ppl nia...