Eps 52- I m Sick, sick, sick...

On Tuesday, something veri shocking happened..mi and wei wen we quarrelled...for the first time....he sae lots of things saying I dun tink abt wat other ppl's tinking and feelings...actualli he is correct therefore I apologised to him..he apologised to mi too...but I tink that is nt needed la cuz I m realli wrong lor....cuz to mi I tot that everione was alrite wif it....cuz no one ever tell mi in my face.....den somemore I having competition mah den at hme practise den parents sae too noisy at sch oso cant practise cant practise alone cuz ppl tink I siao one...haiz and somemore sometimes I feel that maybe is I realli cant sing lor den that's y ppl feel irritated cuz when Aidil sings den no one sae anything....haiz this time rd I m outed again hhaiz I wun participate in competitions liao cuz I tink that no matter how gd or bad there will be ppl that is better den mi lor...haiz frankly speaking I gd at nth sia....running I cant....bball I cant.....singing I cant.....tennis haiz I oso cant.....I tinks I m gd at alot of things but actualli there is always ppl better den mi lor......haiz.....lots of things happened this week....I feeel like juz a piece of shit that cant do anything gd enuff.....I realli cant stand myslf losing to ppl but I cant win them one lor...haiz....den yesterdae Naomi knows hu's SHE liao....haiz she asked mi whether wan to let her see a nt....well guess wat's my ans.....of course nt la.....beside I actualli tot lots of things liao.....hmmmmm like if she start avoiding mi den I how sia....den if she knows already den I can do wat lehz....asked her to be my gf lol of course nt la she final yr liao even if she likes mi
we can be togther for how long....beside I m jealous all the time one lor.....and if she dun like mi den she still wans to be fren wif mi den wat m I going to say to her after my confession....and beside poly50 trainin onli left one more till the final day....which I onli can see her for the last 2 times nia....wat's the pt of letting her kno....at least nw to her....she at least treat mi like a fren lor....like her kno liao the chance of her falling for mi is veri little nia lehz....haiz dunno let her kno will be the gd choice.....haiz like my title sae I m sick again.....oso dunnoe y....play tennis wif edwin(a fren I kno when playing tennis) haiz lost to him again....








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