Eps 67- Things in christmas wk

Yesterdae was Christmas and todae is Luo Zhi Xiang's fa pian dae haha his new album.....This few wks was ok except 25th of dec....my family went to visit my grandpa hu juz came back from hospital....he was cryin when we were at his hme....when I m 4- like pri 3 like tat bah mi and my sis stayed at my grand parents cuz my mom and dad is workin....and they took care of mi....and grandma is dotes my sis and my grandpa dotes mi alot.....and I have nv see him cryin in front mi before....this is the sec time I saw him cryin...the first time is I went to hospital to visit him alone den he cried cuz he was tinking of lots and lots of negative stuffs.....den this time haiz....I realli felt sad sia....a person that dotes mi alots sia haiz everitime I visit him I told myslf that I nd to work harder on my dreams cuz I wan him to see his fave grandchild is on stage and I realli wan him to be proud of mi.....and I realli dun wan anyone from my family to leave mi....cuz I realli dun beared to let them leave mi....they doted mi and I realli loved them even though I dun liked to sae it out but I realli loved them no one is allow to take anyone of them away wif or wifout my permission.....

Christmas- I spent it wif family and den went to movie wif buddy, yiling and Zhixian....watched 'YES MAN' haha was funny.....den we went to Jas's house and tok abt relationship and all....haha I m ready to share something wif everione which is a small part of mi that no one see before....well go to 'mi-u-sad-story.blogspot.com' and see one of my stories wif my ex gal fren....haha

and I m still waiting for the sch to call mi for the shen zheng thing lor....



well I m tired I shall go and sleep byebye........

Eps 66- Understanding is so damn difficult

Past wks I been tinking of a ques.....wat is the diff between 2A02 and 2A01.....I still couldnt find out.....I remember on the dae of the outing....Joyling asked mi if our class can be like them(toking abt Zhong yang's class) I tell her....impossible....even though their class can be quite childish sometimes but they are united and they dun have brood hatred between them.....everione of us have things that they cant tell someone in the class cuz the other person will angry and all.....there's no way....till here another ques pop up in my mind.....in this world does anyone knows mi well.....if u sae yesh.....aiya shld be easy.....den I will give u a challenge...
What is my like and dislike toward my birthdae and other ppl's??? anyone kno pls tagged my blog cuz if it's the correct ans I will give u something....haha
Second...list out the 4 ppl that I had/have realli LIKED....
Lastly.....y do I wan to be singer??? haha shld be easy la haha.....
till here I found out realli no one kno mi well....onli one sentence can describe mi....NV judge a book by it's cover.....
Now I tot of something that has disturb and affect my life for 4 yrs lor like Zhong yang sae I shld give up a long time lor....somehow I still remember the dae I kno her....specially thnks to tian cai he intro mi to her....she everitime gt this stern face like she that dae veri suai like that haha but when she smile everithing is diff lor.....that's y I liked to sae hi to her{Even though I still hope I can do that but lots of things happened} I like to her smile....that happened like when I was sec 3 which is like 2004 like tat bah haha sequently indirectly quarrel wif Zhi xian{2005} den shi hai{2006} abt her but she's nt the cause haha....it's time to sae gd bye to her fro my life.....it's time to move on lor....I realli like the randomness of hers and quiet and noisy moments even though I have nv seen them but fro her blog can imagine all...her entries nv fails to bright up my dae....she might nt care hu and wat I m....well something all things and ppl dun care abt my feelings and all so I gt used to it le....jiu suan everione dun care as long as I care no one can influence.....wo jiu shi xi huan wo xing wo su haha that dae outing zhong yang mention abt her and everione starts asking her and all haha bet she always havin a cold bah haha

Eps 65- 291108

On 28/11/08 which is a fri(last dae of sch), ting yun and shilah shocked mi....cuz they gave mi presents sia lol...haha wo zhang na mo da first time receive presents from frens....that are gals(for birthdae)......ting yun gave mi something veri big which I will nv forgt.....and shilah, she give mi something that I will nd but will nv use cuz is ppl give one haha.....
The Actualli Dae---I received lots of ppl's wishes and blessings....most are gals haha.....here I mz comment on Waihao....y??? becuz he promised to sent a birthdae email and realli did sent....dun see him like gu niang gu niang like tat but he's actualli the man of our class ar haha.....well still have to study for the exams which is on 1/12/08 haha of course it's over le.....dun ask mi how is it??? cuz I felt the pprs are okay but I din work as hard so muz chiong chiong chiong lor.....

Eps 64-......5......more......days....

3llo ppl.....whoever's reading.....it's so fast....so fast I have live on the nice and friendly for 19th solid years....[going to be 19 on some dae of Nov] this yr is special cuz my lunar and english birthdae is on the same day.....haha....but the bad thing is MST are juz 2 freaking daes behind my birthdae.....after this birthdae it's 4 more yrs to my promise le...I still have time....I wan to see everione's jaw dropping down haha......when I fulfill my dream....haha I wan everione to dream and go for it too!!! that's wat I wan....nowsaday ppl are using 'impossible' this word too much....y cant I fulfill my dream....I can gt GPA of 3.5 y cant I gt my dream.....even if 4 yrs ltr I havent fulfill it I will still tried and tried.....I have the spirit of hope in mi.....but do u have it........hahaha.....still 5 more daes.......till my bday....haha and I m 19 hmmmm one yr older liao....realli muz tong shi liao....all the feel and rhythm and technique.....

Eps 63- Review

This week was damn fun....y??? cuz tried new things...done gd thing....finished things....hand up things.....bond things......befrens wif things...lol jkin..........this wk mi, wai hao, Ian, Joyling, Ting yun and shilah....o0o and Johnson....we were choosing our FYP topics......and so we nd to attend 2 of the talks......we went in the first session of Environment Crisis...which ended at abt 330pm...den we went to Automotive electronics....but we went in the wrong session{cuz shld be 3pm -4pm for the first session and 4-5 the second session so add up is 2 talks mah}haha we went both first sessions and marked our attendance lol.....Johnson sae they will tink y this ppl can split into halves ar go 2 sessions at diff venues at the same time....lol
den after that I tell them I going donate blood den wai hao sae u donate blood ar....den he went wif mi cuz he sae he actualli wan to donate last yr but nd dunkno wat form la cuz he still under 18 last yr....den mi,wai hao and Johnson we donated blood....ting yun, shilah and Joyling went wif us {ting yun donated blood the next following dae...}the needle was quite thick...imagine ppl that had to have needles poked into their body....OMG it's realli.....haiz I couldnt even find a word to describe{even though my vocab is limited}....so if u can and if u wan pls hlp by donating blood....or something la juz hlp will do haha.....moods gting better and better....den on fri....it's the sport's dae....Firman and Aidil and Yuan feng joined us our class play hard....fought hard....quarrel hard.....tried hard.....but nv win hard hahaha.....we play the marble thing even though we lost but we realli tried and tried especially the second team....den the captain ball....haha realli frustrating....we quarrel wif referees and our opponent OMG haha but the referees realli sucked sia.....haiz and we played the jump over thing haha we broke record...45 secs.....haha.......my voice seems recovering after the long period of strange voice.....hahaha stilll gt one more thing I nearly forgt.....I handed up MY OITP form liao haha I M GOING SHEN ZHENG AND HONG KONG YESH.....

Eps 62- Saw her

Todae my topic is abt my hair.....I went and cut my hair.....my hairstylist William....he realli veri gd wif his hands cuz he juz adjusted my hair a little and it looks real gd....is my styling gt prob liao...well I will try to style other ways lor but have to update my styling first.....den sec thing is my mum sae din change lehz....T_T OMG I nearly want to quarrel wif her liao le cuz my back is short den my front is cut but nt short either.....den u kno wat she sae....she sae my front too long......lol.....den sae my upper part too thick......lol....realli sia sometimes I realli wonder will she died juz becuz of givin some gd comments abt my hair cuts......OMG I realli sian qu liao lor......den I saw someone todae after my haircut.....I m nt going sae hu.....I dunnoe if she saw mi.....but I definitely saw her......I was hopin nt to see her....for some reasons when I saw her I quickly siam lor.....and my heart was like beating......IS REALLI BEATING hor.....is like beat hard once and then twice....rhythmic.....JOYLING I REALLI LIKE HER LA NT OBSESSED WIF HER......haha u are wrong........

Eps 61- Fun and Fun and fun

The last few wks I been persuading Ian and all to go shenzheng nt becuz I wan to go but cuz we can go as a grp mah....I oso hope we can go as a class lor....cuz shenzheng and hk is like one line diff nia den Ian suggest OITP go shenzheng as a class lor den nw he sae he dun tink he going lor LOL haha I will try to ask them to go one....tingyun ok liao shilah pending Ian pending ahBoon pending khoonYew oso pending.....haha I m realli excited abt going yr 3 and all choosing modules and all cuz it's new to mi mah....hope can gt wat I wan lor....this past few wk I learn lot of things and heard lots of news....Yuan lai she is waiting for mi to tok to her...yuan lai everione knos liao....I finalli kno y shilei oways used tat kind of yan shen look at mi liao....I realli shocked sia when I hear the news den ppl's telling I shld do this and this and that...well hmmm to mi I still wat I choose to do I correct....my frens all will kno y I made this choice and I hope she knos too....haha still gt 22 more daes....

Eps 60- HSM3 last lor

Todae watched HSM3 by myslf.....everyone ard mi either sae I m crazy or asked mi to find fren to go wif mi.....well my classmates dun like HSMs....frens din like to watch too.....din wan them to juz accompany mi......so I went along and watch the show even though it's weird when I went in the cinema theatre but when I was inside I observed other ppl......den I tot of y HSMs attracted ppl to watch so I watch it and realli enjoy everi songs and all.......even though ppl can kno fro the title HSM3: Senior yr....but becuz at the end of the show the main cast was out for a curtain call which usualli in theatre language means that it's the end of the show......and becuz this time rd it's realli in musical form all the dance and props moving and all giving the audience a real musical experiences.....therefore there shldnt be no more HSM4 le bah....shld be lah.....the songs were gd better den the last one.....the dance choreography was realli the best out of the 3....story-based it's can sae it's better den the first 2.....cuz I can feel more of everione's characters and personalities coming out......well after watching I went hme and wrote a song...call 一个人 haha....dun tink that it's a slow and sad song......nope it's my specialty....thaat's born wif mi....haha it's a fast song....a bit of rock...it's more suited for a duet I guess cuz of the lyrics.....haha....nxt time den upload bah haha.......

Eps 59- Lots of thoughts

Ytd I went to Ting yun's birthdae chalet.....met some of her frens....shilin, penny, violet, guohua, shiwei, zixian, edmund, hao yi, linqi..shld be all of them la.....first let's tok abt my embarrassment bah.....I went there I saw her frens cuz she told mi that they all wearing same t-shirt.....den I din dared to walk there lor....cuz so many strangers....my mum did tell mi nt to tok to strangers orhz haha.....den saw shilin first.....finalli gt to see her ....she seem nt as tall as I thought she shld be and she looked average to mi .....den saw violet and guohua.....heard from their conversation that they are actualli an item....dne saw penny......I observed her alot...I tink that she is veri man....in a sense that she will be anything for her frens one no matter wat....yup nt that she is nt feminine and she is quite friendly and cute too.....shiwei, edmund and haoyi and zixian den came along....hmmmm shiwei is much pretty face to face......her eyes are BIG....haha edmund was ok quite friendly too....haoyi is actualli shilin's bf haha...yup and zixian din tok to her much....so din kno much abt her.....as for linqi.....haha she sae she couldnt recognised mi at first sia haha....more handsome or more more handsome haha....I reached there at abt 820+ pm den went hme at 2313pm.......actualli I realli couldnt sense any happy in tingyun...even though she is like smiling and all.....I dun kno how to describe lehz she juz dun seem herslf.....maybe is her bf din went ytd....that's y bah......yup and my gift is veri cool haha I tink cuz the function is veri unique haha.....hope she likes it.....well after her bd is Khoon yew's den I tink is emily's , sasa's, wanni's, naomi's, den nicole and mine (mi and nic shared the same bd) haha.......time is realli moving fast my 5 yrs promise is counting down to 4 yrs liao.....I m going 19 soon le but my album is still nowhere near.....nt to sae my concert is way far lor....haha but fear nt cuz nth is impossible I will create my own destiny and path de.....

Eps 58- 小酒窝

Todae I will recommend this song called 小酒窝 by JJ & Ah Sa....u can feel wat the song is realli trying to tell u.....speaking of feel....this week mi and Jin quan each sing our songs den Alex sae I gt sing dao the emotions come out......which means it's gd.....nw it's back to wat I wan and wat I feel and wat I always can....from EpicStage to Hark's music I proved one thing I realli gt a little bit of talent in terms of singing wat I feel...to mi I felt it's realli easy.....I tink is becuz [if u kno mi well I actualli cant speak well in front of the gal I like....I onli can and will watch her from far ] which oso means I cant express myslf well wif words so from small I express my feelings[dun care if I m happy or sad] thu music....I tink everione oso can de no matter u shi lian or u kana lottery haha both works.....to mi music is a tool to speak how I felt all this yrs....all the things including family, relationship, friendship.....happy moments.....sad moments....lots of things....haha that's y I have to learn keyboard....becuz that's when I can express my feelings thu compose and write songs and sing them out....haha yup.......

Eps 57- Lots of work for singer

Todae watched yu le bai fen bai....wah saw BY2 la.....Xiao Hong Ren.....I see them ar I onli can tink of one thing.....I nd to learn more things if I wan to be like them......I calculate liao the dae of my last vocal lessons is juz nxt yr nia....den I will learnin piano and guitar.......and even more things ltr......haha BY2 kno how to dance veri well and they can play piano and violin.......Xiao Hong Ren I onli kno he can play piano veri well....and his voice has gt this wide range and power lor.....seem like veri far from where I been standing.....4 yrs and 50 daes still counting down
so fast left 4 yrs to my dream.......seem realli veri fast I still remember the words I sae last yr.....
Well let's nt tok abt something that is in the near future....let tok abt my GPA....haha{see my words u already kno liao rite}....yup improved le....overall 3.32 something....this sem I gt 3.5 liao which is my target....was happy....Yesterdae went to pub wif Melvan...Edmund...Deric...Anthony...Deric's Gf...and 2 of their frens.....was lost again cuz their frens sae it behind Central lol....den I brought them to north bridge rd and din kno that the pub was juz near by....lucky my instinct was correct and I brought them to the rite place but lots of things happen along the way.....wah u kno their fren hor he go in den gt one chio bu tok to him liao lol.....he look average but he sure kno how to tok the talk...lor......and in the end he gt her no. lol.........o0o btw my vocal teacher he wanna let mi go on stage for the open mic session....I m so damn happy lor....I hope it's realli a chance....I will realli cherish it de.....my vocal improved alot since I changed my sch to Harkmusic....nt becuz EpicStage nt gd but is the teaching method suit mi more but nw I can apply the knowledge I gt from Chengyao{my former vocal teacher} liao....haha if I tell Randy he will be happy for mi de.....haha I din kno how to go back and visit him but will find a chance de....

Eps 56- 是不是这样的夜晚你才会这样的想起我

Wah it's 15 daes after my 55th posts.....I tink no one will reading my blog due to my inconsistent of blogging.....this past 2 wks went out a few times.....went to Bishan park and celebrate mooncake festival wif the poly 50 peeps.....haha which is Ian, Weiwen, Naomi, Kris, Tianying, Shilei, Ting lei, Li ling, William, Julian, Weilong, Jojo, and I tink I forgt liao la quite a number of peeps but dun worry I din forgt u all de faces but I juz forgt hu went la haha......den went Top1 wif Melvan, Edmund, Deric, Michele and Anthony.....sing alot of songs haha...and we recorded songs too.....den this wk went to meet Zhibang to gt some advice from him for composing songs cuz my vocal teacher Alex sae...at least muz learn an instrument + my vocal or vocal + dance.....haha I gt to learn Keyboard nw lor ......den went to cut hair gt this realli nice haircut....I dunno others but I reali love it....den o0o mi and Zhibang we sing lot of songs but time is short....den I learn this song '是不是这样的夜晚你才会这样的想起我' haha the title gt 17 words lehz haha veri long lor....is sing by 吴宗宪 and this song rite the voice is totalli diff from his voice sia....this song is out at yr 1987 OMG I oso havent been born yet....heard that this song is veri 'hong' at that time....

Eps 55- Wah so dammmn long nv blog lo

Ok...so long nv blog lo....I was busy preparing exams....other den the 1st ppr the rest was okay.....exams nt much to tok abt la...somemore holidae liao dun tok abt exams lo.....last wk wednes....work to setup speakers for the IT show 'comex' was quite fun cuz everione putting in efforts......den din do much after that day till last wk sunday....hlp to packed and take down the speakers..... den wk till 4am in the morning sia haiz I was damn frustrated at everione's planning....the planning at lvl 6 was nt gd too slow....den somemore we shld have take lvl 1 first...cuz haiz mi and waihao we have to find the last exit to take down the speakers den we went rd the whole Suntec building to find one exit......saw 3 ppl at comex wking.....Meifang....Cheryl.....and one more is I dun kno wat's her name haha in SP de....haha....well this wk was sian sian.....cuz nth to do ar except tennis and 黑糖群俠傳 haha it's a show la wif ya tou and lots of ppl in it haha was veri funny....and the song wang zi sing one was nice......I m going to chase this damn freakking gd show....tml is the premiere of Camp rocks! Go watch bah disney channel subscribers haha hope it's a gd show....haha gd luck for ur exams results lor guys....

Eps 54- Poly five zero???2???

All the guys and gals..Runners and winners
FINISHED....haha
This post is a continuous post of eps 54...

Eps 54- Poly five zero???

This is a random shot but gt Mi at the corner
Wan man giving the souvenir to weiwen
Can u spot the person I liked in this pic
Ian receiving the souvenir for us from Wan man
The new frens of SOKA

W'sup This is b3n......todae we will be toking poly50's dae and national day and recent stuffs.....
first:start wif poly five zero.....our class run under SOKA named seagull 5 Subaru....but things are nt smooth....on the 40 somethings rd....Sam goes down wif a stomache....well for mi...his absence changed my life...cuz I stood up and taking up the challenge of 9 ppl running 50 rds( of course everione take up the challenge)but my body wasnt tired even after running the 50 rds....I break out of mental and physical limits.....all of us{Yuan feng, Ian, Aidil, Johnson, Khoon yew, Mi, Ting yun, Shila, Rabia} we din give up and finished 45th and become the first team to finish within the SOKA's Student Division...we all are damn proud of ourselves....well I pity Sam cuz poly50 is nt a experience that we can see everiday....diff ppl can learn diff things in poly50 well....let's hope that his bad luck will soon worn off....
Second: The National dae was gd but I was sick again cuz I nv listen to doc's advice to finish the antibodies lor....I deserves it one la haha.....den whole family's out except mi cuz I realli dun wan to go anywhere on that dae....
Third: Recently....
Mi, weiwen and Ian...we handed in our mini project to mdm soo liao...was gd lor gt 88 marks...den hlped Joyling to debug their program lor.....theirs was easier bah I tink....

Tennis is progressing better and better.....even though I had no one to teach mi but figured out quite a num of things....serve is gtting more power and consistent...strokes are nt my thing but at least I can control the direction of the ball to where I wan them to be....my best is still serve&volley....I read up on it and did it once to edwin.....my reactions was gd against him....but dunnoe against other pros will work a nt....

Abt her.....haha Ian and Naomi is like telling mi to tok to her more la and all such of stuffs....but guess wat I saw her again todae....it's like fate lor cuz I went to buy drinks mah den saw vendin mach but nt working....so I went to another vendin mach near fc 1 den I saw her walking out of the toilet toking to her fren haha she din see mi haha she so cute lor....den bought my drinks wanted to see can see her again so went peeking into fc 1 but I cant see her....den I decided to go back lor I staarted walking till the blue glass door near fc 1 I turned back I saw her again this time dunno she gt see mi a nt haha I quickly turned and walked as normal....I tot she behind mi den I turned again at T2 there she gone liao haiz....haha quite a story huh!!!

Eps 53- 原谅我

Todae wake up early(not veri early la actualli...11am) to prepare to go back sch and play tennis with the WALL...haha serve and serve lor....my serve is getting smoother and faster but still the consistency has nt improve.....have to find a way lor....try to play serve&volley style like eiji kikumaru fro POT den play till veri long gt 2 ppl come into the court and start playing....haha guess wat time I reach hme 1616pm.....haha I played 4 hrs of tennis alone haha I m realli a weird person haha......den went hme and start recording song.....I recorded my own version of 原谅我 by 萧敬腾....was ok la but I nd to improve on it......I tried to find ways to upload it but failed I will continue find ways and means to upload it de.......den abt her....I tink I shld nt tell her...cuz she is like a blur sheep....I tink to her world is nt going to accept mi ...I realli m veri cautious upon taking a step cuz I scared that she will be affected by my confession to her......den alot of things are going to happen......becuz I realli like her that's y I realli din wan it to happen her....I wan her to be the blur blur forgtful everione dotes de her......I m a man...so I rather nt let her kno......she will always be her....till that day die........








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Eps 52- I m Sick, sick, sick...

On Tuesday, something veri shocking happened..mi and wei wen we quarrelled...for the first time....he sae lots of things saying I dun tink abt wat other ppl's tinking and feelings...actualli he is correct therefore I apologised to him..he apologised to mi too...but I tink that is nt needed la cuz I m realli wrong lor....cuz to mi I tot that everione was alrite wif it....cuz no one ever tell mi in my face.....den somemore I having competition mah den at hme practise den parents sae too noisy at sch oso cant practise cant practise alone cuz ppl tink I siao one...haiz and somemore sometimes I feel that maybe is I realli cant sing lor den that's y ppl feel irritated cuz when Aidil sings den no one sae anything....haiz this time rd I m outed again hhaiz I wun participate in competitions liao cuz I tink that no matter how gd or bad there will be ppl that is better den mi lor...haiz frankly speaking I gd at nth sia....running I cant....bball I cant.....singing I cant.....tennis haiz I oso cant.....I tinks I m gd at alot of things but actualli there is always ppl better den mi lor......haiz.....lots of things happened this week....I feeel like juz a piece of shit that cant do anything gd enuff.....I realli cant stand myslf losing to ppl but I cant win them one lor...haiz....den yesterdae Naomi knows hu's SHE liao....haiz she asked mi whether wan to let her see a nt....well guess wat's my ans.....of course nt la.....beside I actualli tot lots of things liao.....hmmmmm like if she start avoiding mi den I how sia....den if she knows already den I can do wat lehz....asked her to be my gf lol of course nt la she final yr liao even if she likes mi
we can be togther for how long....beside I m jealous all the time one lor.....and if she dun like mi den she still wans to be fren wif mi den wat m I going to say to her after my confession....and beside poly50 trainin onli left one more till the final day....which I onli can see her for the last 2 times nia....wat's the pt of letting her kno....at least nw to her....she at least treat mi like a fren lor....like her kno liao the chance of her falling for mi is veri little nia lehz....haiz dunno let her kno will be the gd choice.....haiz like my title sae I m sick again.....oso dunnoe y....play tennis wif edwin(a fren I kno when playing tennis) haiz lost to him again....








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Eps 51- Sad sad sad days

Yesterdae was super duper forgtful lor.....late for maths den nvm lehz forgt to bring laptop for OOP test....din went to find one...the teacher was like shoutin at mi to go find....well dun tink that I wan to fail that's y I din bring my laptop...I was realli totalli forgtten abt it liao lor.....den I was tinking wat if fate din wan mi to pass my OOP...haha that's y I din go and find lor...somemore everione I called either din listen or din have laptop....but weiwen and mdm soh hlp mi asked one of her students to loan mi his laptop on a condition to give him 20 bucks after the whole thing.....guess wat my OOP test was damn easy for mi.....and I surely can ACED it haha....I finished the test in 1 hr and that guy hu loan mi his laptop gt his laptop back and I gave him 20 bucks....everione was shocked...cuz they tot mdm soh was jkin abt it...but I gave it is becuz I wan myslf to remember that I forgt to bring laptop for a test.....den after the test was the presentation for the gems....was okay la the marks 86/100....den waited for her appearance at plaza cuz I heard weiwen tok to Naomi that she will be there at 5 pm like that lor....den I waited and waited till 545pm I go toilet and gt an intuition that she will be there when I go back to the plaza....den she was quiet as usual and start drawing she asked mi to hlp but I din cuz I juz wan to see her nia...dne went for vocal class....the teacher was gd and he taught wat I wan to kno on the first lesson....it's a gd start la but is it going to last that's another thing ....den actualli I asked practically everione for wan man's no cuz my call couldnt reach her mah.....den finalli gt her no. liao call her ask her if they all went back le mah she sae yesh...haiz I actualli wans to go back and give them some encouragement one lor but haiz they went back liao.... den todae was late for poly50 trainin for an hr den went to run lor without any warm up and anything....veri diff lor the whole of my right leg was numb and tremblin...of course I din tell anyone and juz continue running....till abt 20 something rd my body den is warm up and I continue and ride on my pace run....I continuously run rounds lor givin others more time to rest...den they sing song lor and give encouragements and all lor den when they are abt to cheer that time I walked away...cuz my lungs were acting strange.....I went to the toilet and all.....actualli I realli cant take it during the early 20 something rds cuz my heart and lungs and legs are givin mi lots of probs and they hurts lor....that's y I din tok much ...I tink some of them kno something's wrong wif mi den keep asking mi can a nt...I appreciated it but I have to finish wat I have started mah that's y I din tell lor haha....abt her right I oso wat to do lor....onli 2 more trainin + actual thing liao I dun kno how....she like gt something to sae to mi lor the way she looked at mi..haiz...dunno how....den somemore the audition is a few daes away I realli to gt into the finale to sing wo ai de ren cuz I realli hope she will come and see lor haiz but the probability is veri little nia.....I juz realli hope that she kno my feelings can liao cuz I m like nt going to see her everi weds and sats liao den mi and her talks la but veri little lor....I still remember something that realli hurts mi one lor I wun forgt how they rejected mi on singing my special for them....I wun forgt de.....everione that knos mi kno that I loved to sing a special for my frens on their birthdae lor haiz......haiz lots of things happen la I oso dunno how to face it la.....going to exam liao muz study liao.....haiz








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Eps 50- Compete???

Todae I was doing CA PBIL wif Ian den suddenly feel like blogging...in the end...I din kno wat to write...den din blog liao....haha but after the OOP lesson I found out something....wat's the difference between mi and wei wen....he's reliable, humble, encouraging....and more lor.....I m totally opposite of him.....cuz when I gt 100 for OOP lab quiz ar I was happy den teacher like shock like that haha in the end whole class kno I scored 100 lol....haiz my habit cant change sia muz change liao...den she todae sent an email to mi tot wat sia...chey she send to everione haha.....haiz oso dunno if she kno my existence a nt cuz she seems blur everitime I saw her...den she is like that kind of ppl that will be veri funny and more participating wif close frens one....I kno I kno muz slowly slowly rite.....well sometimes when she is alone spacing that time ar I realli wan to go and tok to her one lehz but the words cant come out like I wan it to lor...well like the other 5 ppl I realli liked....nervous and excitement when I saw her lor...same lor juz that this time I like the way she looked at mi...haha when I jkin wif everione den doing some strange funny things that time....she will have this look in her eyes....haha LOVED that look dunnoe if she's the one a nt but I hope she is la...cuz nt much time left liao....hahahaha......(onli myslf kno wat that means)...tml going to see her again.....oso dunno wat to do....am I content juz see her on every wed and sat.....haiz maybe yesh maybe no....I oso dunnoe but one thing is for sure...she wun have time to space cuz I will jk and di siao her one haha.....








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Eps 49- all abt mi

Todae I was tinkin of wat song to sing for the competition I was joining....actualli I was considering nt joining cuz I dun wan to repeat the fate of last yr where Aidil gt into the nxt rd and I din...haiz but shila she said that sometimes she feels that mi and aidil are veri courageous cuz at least we dare to sing in front of ppl....haha actualli she's right lor....I mean I kno that if I out in the first rd, at least I tried my best mah...haha so I decided to join for the sake of everione that loves singing juz as much or even more den mi....everione is saying aidil will be winning this yr....hmmmm actualli I oso tink so....but I will still try to make it to sec rd de haha....hmmmm I tot of saying fei ni mo shu lor cuz alot of feel recently mah haha...but the judge will cry a nt is another thing haha.....if I gt in I will sing bei pan.....that is if I gt in haha....








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Eps 48- Ah Gar's back from hospital...lor

Todae I went to pick up ah Gar from hospital...he's gt a disease tat cuz him to fall into coma....luckily the doctors there were gd they could fix him up and he has awaken from his deep slp...abt my life recently...hmmmmm started playing tennis for abt 3 wks....I played on mondae tues and thurdae.....mondae and tues I played myslf....thursdae I played wif khoon yew....we both beginners haha becuz we 2 are of same standards that's y we give a hard time for each other....in the end I manage to win khoon yew wif forehand moves......still trying to improve my backhand.....haha and serve.....hope to join beginners' class soon haha....tennis' fun.....nw if u wonder wat happen to basketball....well I m nt going to play bball no more....becuz I couldnt find no one that has the same amount of passion as mi.....haha well tennis is the sport that suit mi more......hmmmm abt poly 50.....I finalli felt tired le after all the trainin....I joined poly 50 is to prove to some ppl that there is no limits.........even if we lost but as long as we give everithing we've gt we have no regrets....and my decision to join was correct...I met lots of ppl that had the same thinking....Eric, Naomi, HER, Wan man, Shi lei, Kris, Jiang liang, Benjamin(nt mi ar), and lots of ppl....our class is oso running....haha....onli ppl wif firm minds and hearts are asked to join.....I tink I will miss all the ppl in SOKA cuz they are so frendly and caring....I like to tok to them a lot.....as for my last entry....everithing is going wat I tink will happen....haha....I actualli discussed wif Wei wen and he sae that they will change lor....U 3 better live up the expectations of Wei wen and be glad that alot of ppl is actualli hlping u all...well I m saying this becuz I nt angry liao or wat but I m disappointed till no hopes for them liao so to mi it's okay whether I gt less 3 ppl in my class or remain the same......well let's nt tok abt it lor.....I recently found out that whenever I saw HER ar I will be excited and wans to tok to her and make her laugh(cuz I like to see the way she laugh veri cute)haha....I like someone lor....all this yrs...actualli I onli liked 6 ppl....including HER.....the rest is I see them pretty or cute den anyhow sae one hahahaha and den everione believed mi haha......btw the match between Roger Federor(world's no. 1) and Nadal(world's no. 2) at Wimbledon's was the greatest match I have ever seen..the match lasted for nearly 5 hrs...haha they are so gd la.....haha tired lor....gts liao tml gt poly 50 trainin.....BTW ah Gar's my laptop haha......Gotcha!!!!








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Eps 47- Nth can be done no more!!!

TO ppl that kno mi well............well I doubt anyone will kno mi well........have anyone ever noticed that when I m being out done...I became nth den started nt toking...Is nt I dun wan to tok is I chu le ke yi ran ren xiao.....I hai ke yi zuo she mo....u guys sae de things oso nt my topic....wat can I do???I believe everitime I dim dim den ppl start asking mi y like tis y like tat....but I always sae nth la....even if I sae oso no use...u all can do it mehz....In my life...No one have ever given mi any support nor encouragement...no one...I remember Shila ask mi y I onli sae sad songs....the reason is becuz I have nv been happy before...when ppl gt probs no matter wat if I can hlp I will hlp....but when I gt prob no one wan to care a damn wif mi....everione is like tat....this is y I tok so much is juz wan u guys care abt mi a bit more nia but no one care a damn....dun sae my friends even my family dun care.....no one notices mi....that's y everitime I count on myself den on others....orh rite wat abt my dreams....haha I bet ppl hu see my blog are ppl that wan to see how stupid and silly m I rite...juz wan to laugh at mi behind my back.....saying that I m doing the impossible....cant anyone give mi any real support and encouragement...I m an average guy I kno...but I dun wan to be like this anymore....if ppl dun care abt mi dun even kno my existence den I tink I will give a damn abt ppl liao....y shld I care so much hlp u so much then after that u all juz treat mi as a person hu is eat glass grow up one....I dun trust anyone no more le.....no person on earth is worth my damn freaking trust....y shld I try to fit into something that is nt my size.....all I did everithing is juz to be notice.....even if abit I oso happy but after all this yrs I realli sian liao....realli sian liao.....Lawson, Sam and Daryll u all died or drop out for the course is ur own business liao u wan to play that match or nt is nt a concern liao no pt....when u all are juz trying to pei he mi nia....I realli m disappointed at u all....each and everione of u all....Sam and Lawson both have same pattern...so they died their business....As for Daryll I oso dun kno y u angry wif Ian lor...wat's the pt lor...u are an outsider in their relationship...wat u angry over such small things lehz...u angry liao they be back togther mehz.....This is my last advice to U all 3 liao as for the rest of the ppl hu kno mi...nono is ppl hu kno my name....I will change my talkative ways liao...no pt continuing trying to gt ppl to notice when these ppl dun even care a damn abt u!!! no pt!!!








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Eps 46- WTF!!!

Todae's maths' exams was fairly easy....all of it I can do except for the last ques haha 5 marks one....I was abit sianed-out when yesterdae de her was nt at FC4 toddae cuz wan to gt her no. one first time I gt initiative go take ppl's no. hor.....den nvm somemore the wed's friendly is near den somemore out of 5 ppl 4 bears grudge against the other......haiz oso dunno how to settle...and dunnoe how to perform that dae ar...somemore when I call Randy todae tell him my decision then he sae that I need to tell him a month notice to quit the course and he sae that he told us that this 6 months course...we cant quit....lol...den he sae abt wat integrity of the students and nt fair to students and the teacher.....if I m the person I m before I worked in Fisher I will definitely nt quit and continue the 2 months but nw I will onli take one step back nia...becuz to mi I dun wan to do things that I cant confirm my improvement in my singing....so I decided since he wan one month notice I will juz stay for a month....I will hold on to watever my dreams and will definitely wan cheng it cuz I have nv been this selfish and nt thought of ppl's feelings...so todae I will be selfish even if ppl tink of mi as someone no integrity...








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Eps 45- Exams todae!!!

Todae is 23 June 08---OOP exams todae....dunno wat will come out lehz the past yr ppr quite easy lehz but dunno todae's de ppr difficult mah...haha tml maths liao...tonite chiong maths lor....tinking abt ACS nw haha...fun when I learned alot by reading ACS's textbk....dunno hu called mi todae...di siao mi nia lor....haiz nows-a-days de ppl ar......haiz todae saw two gals lor quite pretty gt figure...tot she be my fate haha but saw her oso no feeling lehz sia lor....I have gt to keep searching....haha....everione jiayou for the MST lor....








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Eps 44- Exams!!!

Ello everione!!! I had made my decision and have registered with Hank's music loh....even though I had to leave all the ppl I knew in EpicStage Academy but I had to do it....I have to fulfill my dream....haha zhibang met mi yesterdae to register at hank's music den he encourage mi to take up the prep class as to jump stages lor haha actualli I oso nt that confident if I can skip steps mah haha....well we'll see...btw I been toking abt having a gf to accompany mi to watch movie haha veri silly rite haha cuz I nth to do so dun care mi haha.....tml's exams lor....dun tink can score this time cuz din study much juz like last yr's MST 1 like tat....well I will see wat will motivate mi to chiong my studies like last yr but the results muz be better den last yr.....recently found out that as I gt older my mindset realli changed lots sia nt like last time liao nw cared abt ppl's feelings more and can understand things more.....nt as impulsive either in relationships or in terms of treating ppl {hope so bah} haha....my heart dun seeem much like last yr lehz last yr was like wanting to find a gf alot....but this yr even though saw a few my type one but nw to mi no feelings means NO feelings lehz and I wun go intro myslf and do anything to know that gal...nope I wun...I have realli change but still I will search for no.3 one haha hope to meet my no.3 soon........








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Eps 43- My decision!!!

Ello guys!!! I m totally sianed-out todae cuz I myself have faced my own probs in my vocal lessons and I realised that my improvement is nt wat I wanted...I have not much time left...5 yrs de Nov 29th I've gt to gt my concert going...it's my dream....I've always wanted it but my learnin in EpicStage is slowing mi down for my concert...I dunno it's my understanding prob or my teacher's teaching prob but I realised that I have to change either the teacher or my vocal sch....I told Randy juz nw that I m considering changing my environment and he told mi lots of things and asked my vocal classmate , Alicia, she oso tink that if I realli wan to fulfill my dream I shld realli change sch and see if it helps....I have yet to ask Jacky...I wanted to ask them becuz it involve them as my class originally is 4 ppl one den one gone liao become 3 ppl den if I go den they cant continue...I have gt to respect ppl's decisions and gt to pave my way...In my heart, the decision had already been made but I dunwan my decision to affect so many ppl....the sch I considering is HANK's MUSIC zhibang's sch dunnoe wat to do hlphlp....everyone....








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Eps 42 - Life is back!!!

Ello!!!Guys, I so long nv blog lor...haha the reason is becuz I had to do some adjusting for the surrounding ard mi....If u dun understand wat I mean...I juz mean I been tinking everithing abt mi and the ppl that had done something to mi, which changed the way I tink...like humans desires toward own survival more den anything...in order to survive, anything even if it's something against ur own conscience, u will do in it....we humans are definitely veri imperfect at all...I hated my natural abilities sometimes....I learn lots of things in the past few months...esp abt myslf..... I find out that I actualli can read someone actions and kno wat that person is tinking....I learn that actualli I learns new things veri quickly after I become more calm.....but I oso suddenly realised that ppl that survived are ppl with abilities and experience....so I made a promised nt to step into an office after my attachment....I dun wan to hai ren.......last month was the blue month as all the bad habit started to show even more...late for class....nt attending for CA classes....having fun everidae....it seems like I dun care a damn at all to anything....but from todae U WILL NV SEE MI LIKE THIS NO MORE...everithing will be back lor cuz I m mi again an improved mi....a thinking mi and one more thing I forgt to sae tok to mi wif caution cuz I can kno wat ur character is while toking to UR things dun tink I stupid one....ar haha I will start analyze ppl soon...already found my target lor haha of course that person is nt one of my readers la haha......MADA MADA DANE.......













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Eps 41- Happy hapy happy2

Todae was quite a happy dae cuz overall things went well....firstly classes are ok except the CA teacher he teaches in detail which is gd but too detail will become slow....maybe others dun understand bah but I observe him and the class and wanted to find out 2 things....firstly is that does anyone is listenin to him...secondly how can he teach an hr onli 3 slides that is ridculous....haha dun tok abt him lor tok abt other lecturers....like Mr Ho....todae we do the expt1 wah Mi and Ian do till du lan ar....becuz the test 2 so easy lor and when he tell us the ans that time wah we sian qu liao lor haiz sian well at least I kno nxt time wun come out this type of Lab test haha.....another is that Lawson, Mi, Daryll and Ian is finalli showing something on the court...dunnoe whether their passion towards BBALL gt increase a nt....well I still have lots of things to learn lor....well I promised u guys that I will tok abt my vocals lessons de....and here is it.....my voice now probably can reach Cao ge lor....any song(even superwoman and bei pan) haha....but bad new is my teacher sae that I din use the techniques he taught in class haha but seriously I still dun quite kno how to 'KAI' lehz but can reach so high I m damn happy le but I will try to 'KAI' can my teacher sae confirm chop chop can sing even higher one....hahaha when that dae happens I can become the new nan high yin le hahaha...........













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Eps 40- When once happened, things will be changed forever.....

Todae I was quite tired and sian cuz other class sit my class de front row....haiz I hated sitting behind somemore the LT so big den oso cant see the screen ar...haiz watched my date wif Vamp2---eps 36....haiz so touching....becuz of her son...she forgt that she is dead already...and keep on fighting to protect her son....even the king of Vamp felt touched but still killed her......I felt that sometimes wat we, as children, wan juz a prove to tell us that our parents love us...a proof of y they punished us....but when they are gone le den we actualli juz wan them to live....maybe some of us are like this maybe nt....but one thing I m sure is that nv tink that they dun care abt u and do all those silly things to gt their attention....ok...well enuff of thoughts le.....well back to my life....hmmmm this week I m nt veri busy on sch work but I saw Sasa's blog and wah she first yr nia jiu so chiong liao haha....sure can made it in poly de......becuz poly is nt onli abt grades...is abt meeting other ppl of diffferent age and diffferent backgrd......tml going back to fisher lo.....and returned Uniform.....dunno can take cheque a nt....and one more thing is I wan Irene to be my godsis....so Irene if u are looking and reading at this entry.....and having the 'dunoe wat is he doing' expession....or which is shock.....pls dun be....I oways hope to have a elder sis that can take care of mi....u are truly a wonderful fren.....*I have lots of thought nd to be tink and I nd to find out the ans to everi single ques.....BTW are u guys surprised I din tok abt my vocal lessons...becuz I quit le....haiz..............joking nia la haha I willl updated a entry on my vocals class tell u guys all my improvement over this 2 months......TATA













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Eps 39- Wah so many ppl!!!

Todae was a tiring dae as start from 8 end at 5....I kno working is more exhausting den studying....definitely true......this sem's lecturers are gd but I still like last's yr lecturer esp Raj....."Chicken little"Henry..."SweeSwee" Mr Tan....haiz they so gd...my GPA for last yr is 3.149 ard there bah....dun wow....it's onli a beginning....I be back....(no link la actualli but it juz come into my mind and wan to sae it haha)......no la realli dun wow la cuz I cant go Uni wif this lousy GPA...I wan 3.5 and above....found someone's thinking same as mine on the GPA thing...Shermin haha...that dae I saw her den she like dunnoe mi like tat look liao zai look den I waved to her den she waved back to mi....den her fren looked at mi....haha wat if she is toking to someone behind mi....that's y when I waved her fren looked at mi....hahaha....I tink this few daes are the most happiest daes of this yr bah....new freshie[tables] which mean more Gals to kno and look at....more modules to learn...more class in a lecture.....first row always ours,2A02, which no one wans to sit....and somemore the always 100 marks guy...Wei wen to teach us and of course my own competitor..which nv win him once exp for maths....haha...well I muz jia you le I wan to go Uni if can nw.....Learnin Learnin and Learnin.....Btw when I learn the Cryptography I will change the binary code loh....cuz like alot of ppl kno and wanting to kno.....haha













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Eps 38- Welcome back!!

Wah after so long....finalli I blog....lots of ppl my blog died liao but actualli is I too busy cant find time to blog.....lots of things happen during my work period.....which let mi understand more abt myslf and more abt office politics....even at the age of 18 I could understand the little things y the management does....haiz I feel so damn sian knowing that my own uncle is like tat I have nth to sae....onli apologies to all the ppl in fisher.....Todae was the first dae of sch....things are going quite well enuff....the guys are nt much diff...still funny...the ladies oso nt much changes la....feeling abit weird as so long nv blog lor...haha dun kno wat to tok and where to start....actualli quite alot of things happen but I cant tell most here haha...cuz I din ask their permit to post it in public...but I onli can sae that wat I went though will always be in my mind and I bought my PSP slim......so happy haha......













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Eps 37- Lots of opportunities.....

Ytd was my vocals assignment....found out that Irene put 2 CDs of xiao zhu on the shelves and his autograph is on it....OMG he is my idol la....and the nxt thing is there will be a singing competition organised by my vocal sch FusionX music and EMI records....open for public....I m going to work hard liao cuz the winner gt a recording contract.....and hope that all of us in my vocals class can go up to lvl 1 togther lor...learn things togther and one more thing gt to tune my pitching....ytd my pitching was okay la....haha but still nt that stable...till veri stable one....so I nd to listen to more keyboards....haha my dream will come true de......













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Eps 36- Things are becoming more meaningless....

Today is Chinese new yr de second dae....gt lots of hong baos.....went to my grandma's hse was hoping to see her but I onli saw oxygen, carbon dioxide and lots of things that had nth to do wif her.....I oso y....after Dec 30 I din see her anymore....den on Wed which is Chinese new yr's eve had to work till 130pm....den Zhong yang msg mi ask mi gt go back sch a nt....of course I reply no....den ask him saw her a nt....he sae yesh.....that moment I realli veri sian lor realli wan to see her lor one glance oso better than nth lor haiz but no choice had to finish things are going to be ship on Mon....todae her blog put some sentences that are veri weird in terms of the meaning la and of course she is nt toking abt mi....but I wished she was toking abt mi...at least at that moment I was in her mind....but it's a juz a silly thought anyway...haha hu ever that person is.....is so fortunate cuz if gals like tat sae to u ar....means to her u are perfect cuz she tink that she is nt gd enuff for u lor....zi bei la...so dun let her feel this way...man and if u realli jio dao her ar pls I beg u treat her wif all ur heart k...she is realli a nice gal......dun let her down k.....singing is becoming more diff for mi le haiz everithing is juz nt going my way la...cuz I oso dun kno y....I fail in everithing....I oso dunno y....maybe I m realli fated to be juz an average person....haiz enuff of the sad things le...let's tok abt other things...first thing is that I tink that my uncle Raymond hao xiang hlping mi to find galfren like that lor gt any gals ar den called mi to go jio liao...lol...my workplace oso a gal call April..he wan mi to jio her....lol...of course I din take it seriously...sec thing is that when April meet mi to bring mi to the office...she walked a little bit in front of mi and I listen to earpiece and all my relatives ask mi y I din tok to her....somemore Daryll still ask mi to go ask her no. lol I oso dun like her....haiz third thing is looks like this yr valentine's dae I will be alone AGAIN...haiz....maybe nxt yr if I can forgt her.....I will have someone special to accompany mi for Valentine's dae and do lots of things I din done on Valentine's dae before......hope bah....













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Eps 35- I m back...from exams

Hello and welcome back all the poly students in SP juz finished their exams and started their holidae....todae I will tell all abt the past wk....mondae was a boring dae cuz it's sample DE ppr, sampple DE ppr and more sample DE ppr....haiz listen liao oso tired ar...tues was realli a veri rush dae cuz wake up veri late and had to do pprs and maths was ar.....haha...Wed was the actual DE ppr .....was there early as usual time lor 9am...den wait for pple to come and start toking here and there and do and do pprs again....den 610pm start ppr liao...haha DE was piece of cake...thurs was realli veri tiring had to do pprs and practice a bit of vocals...haha I din practice much after the last lesson and u kno wat Qing yao sae my improved alot and the assignment song was ok till a sentence totalli veri flat ar....haha the class was like shock la cuz I din zao siang den suddenly zao siang when the song is going to end lol...they sae still gt a bit pitching prob nia other than that part which I cant change to "fake voice" in time.... and one more thing is that from her blog she writes there that she gt gd result that she is happy abt...maybe nt that happy but contented....hmmm Joey gt 16 bah and she is start sch todae at TP...can u imagine how much talents she have...and Ziting gt I tink 16 for L1R4 19 for L1R5...she so clever lor the most shocking thing is Royston gt 11 pt OMG congrats Royston....Nicky My twin gt 20 pts haha I m glad that most ppl I kno gt wat they wanted lor....haha....this is the few updates I wan to tok abt first thing is stop asking if I jioing sasa le....cuz I m nt....second thing is that I tink more and more ppl are starting to read my blog bah I tink....haha more updates will be coming up....













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Eps 34- sorrie for the late entry

Tml is exams le but can sae prepare still ok le hmmmm of course still gt other sub mah haha going to be veri busy liao ar...she going take results le lehz haha nt my business rite haha but I kno she definitely gt gd grades so no nd to tink so much la huh hahaha....my blog will be back once my exams are over...













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Eps 33- At least there is one more thing to be happy abt...

Todae totalli din went sch cuz y....maths, I dreamt of Mr Henry sae he could onli be there for an hour nia den I fal aslp le haha...but gems is veri unclear lor cuz it's exams study wk and there is no instructions abt it....maybe is I lazy bah...hhaha...well todae pack the computer room and I will be slping there le cuz y that's my new room even though it's smaller den my sis room but well I finalli gt my OWN room haha....I can practise my song all dae long le haha...even though things are not going well for mi rite nw but I figured out that I still have to be happy cuz y...becuz I remember y I wan to be a singer...for support and trust and the love of singing...to express myslf using song cuz I m nt gd nt speaking my mind...this few reasons are part of y I recovered my happy mood...and one more is todae's drama show, qian wang bai qi, Yang siqi was a mute but she is talented in violin...y becuz she can express her feelings in her song...I remember Randy sae I oso can do that den I suddenly remember that technique is impt but songs are suppposed to affect ppl...therefore this is wat I have nw to ACE my vocal assigment to go to LVL 1....one more reason is I saw her blog....she is like so cheerful everidae lor dne when I read her blog I oso being affected become cheerful again...haha













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Eps 32- cant sing wasnt show on the FUCKIN TV

WTF todae was a veri horrible dae...Randy sae my voice veri throaty....nt my own voice...WTF I m movin backwards rather than improvin...haiz I cant find my voice...I cant realli cant...m I realli bu ke neng wan cheng wo de meng xiang mah....pitching gt problem....and I starting to feel that cheng yao dun like mi...and will there be more worst thing happen to mi...ppl 17th year old jiu chu album liao...I tink I xia ban bei zi du bu yong liao ar......












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Eps 31- I cut my hair....

Todae Randy take mi to his recommended hairstylist...and chose wat I wan...even though I m satisified but I tink still nt much big difference...yet....nd to do other type of hairstyle but I planing to wait for it to grow see how....I was late for 30 mins and Randy waited mi for 30 mins and somemore had his lunch liao ar haha....sorrie Randy...he spend another 2 hours and made sure that the hairstylist do his work....haha....such a nice person...tml is the first dae of assignment and the CRS test...liao....sian oso dunnoe wa to do la...it's an argumentive essay...last time my sec sch oso nv teach one cuz they sae it's a trap to let students drop in...haiz oso dunnoe wat to do...den todae was bathing that time found out wat Cheng yao was saying when he sae that aim low when hitting high keys....I totalli understood le....but oso nt much use cuz I still have to improve on my pitching first....













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Eps 30- filming on Sundae

Let mi report on wat I have done this few daes....firstly I have done filming for my sis....it was quite okay except veri cold....secondly I went to k-box...wif Randy and Calvin and Irene and Michele...haha even though I can reach some of Cao ge's song ar but my pitching's off a lot...den Randy tell mi that nd to improve ar...Irene told mi if she were my teacher she yi ba jiu xia qu liao ar...haha....I oso dunnoe y juz cant pitch well...some pitching is off is probably beczu of my breathing but most of the pitching is off I oso dunnoe y....still trying to figure out...my wonderful body...weird lehz I oso dunnoe y?? haaha...o0o ya den we sing till like going 1 liao den go hme...den Michele's parents came and fetch her...hmmmmm haha feeling abit sorrie cuz she asked mi gt niterider a nt I sae gt...den veri late liao den Calvin tell her dun ve cuz it's Sun...lol sorrie...den I went hme by wat...wanna guess...by my foot...I walked hme fro Cineleisure...haha took mi I tink 30 mins like tat are...haha this is all my updates le lor...hahaha o0o btw I will be cutting my on wed hahaha...which is tml...Randy told mi there veri exp....haha but nvm can change a new look for mi can liao...













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Eps 29- Something's wrong wif my ears

Todae went to fusionX and pay the fees...there are good news and bad news...good news is that I maybe cutting my hair on Mon cuz Randy nd to book the timeslot see if the hair stylist is available...the bad news is that my world tour concert might need more than 5 yrs...well but the bigger prob is my damn ears they are damn weird...I have gt accent..I have gt rhythm...but I dun have pitching...if I dun have pitching means I've gt nth....haiz Randy told mi that actualli I shld be in lvl 1 den oso dunno y become prelvl but nvm he sae that my lvl 1 oso nt strong...but he told mi this if I wan to lvl up den I have to pass though my damn ceilling becuz he and Les both tink that I still havent reach my full potential yet...haiz but there is onli one thing MY PITCHING...arrrrrr haiz I try Randy's method but I still can pitch lehz...dunnoe y tml trying again...trying the highest note on the keyboard...did some recording todae it was horrible...haiz oso dunno y ppl sae I can sing maybe they are realli lying to mi so that I will fall deep down to their trap and will so disappointed and maybe commit suicide...haiz Pitchin dunnoe y God gave things but dun give mi a full set...lol haiz this is a real big prob...













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Eps 28- Happy happy happy I wish that is everidae

Ytd wake up late and couldnt go to maths becuz of my lateness haha dun have such word...well but had to go for Gems cuz y...nt I veri kuai is gt test...den I tot the test was ok maybe is I dunkno wat's going on that's y...haha...den at 1.30pm I was the dover train station and the train gt something wrong and oso dun kno y everione on the train alight from the train...I was listening to songs therefore nt realli paying attention to wat's going on...but the thing is the train driver came out of the train and call the ctrl room for something and all the time I tot that machine is a generator...nw is a telephone lol...and it rings okay...I was shocked becuz I tot is a one way telephone...which means that u can onli call in not wait for calls...haha but IT RINGS...lol...I wait for 2 trains ltr den aboard cuz it's realli alot of ppl...passengers la more correct nono is angry and frustrated passengers...haha they keep making the sound...well abt my singing hmmm I onli can sae pitching is a lot of hardwork...and ytd was a funny dae...I went to fusionX to pay my fees but no one was in and called Randy but he din picked up his phone so no choice went hme lor haha den went hme le abt 10 or 11 bah I go see her blog den found out that she realli gt go SP's open hse hmmmm becuz my inner voice was like go see if she's there but I din went anyways...haha becuz even I went saw her le oso no use[confirm will saw her cuz the timing she sae in her blog is 1.30pm] lol...but I oso dun even dare tok to her wat's the pt...haha Joel asked mi this ques 2 daes ago...he asked do I tink that she maybe gt interest in mi...haha the first tot in my mind[and I tink oso will appear in her mind] is NO!!!...haha becuz I read her blog for a few months le somehow I kno abit wat she's like and somemore asked from frens well I tink that she likes that kind of guys that is frendly and whenever she is bored will be there for and gt a lot of topics to tok abt one...haha I tink la cuz as long as I nt that kind I tink she will like bah hahaha....hmmmm back to topics becuz Vanny told mi tat she will be excited when u have an interesting topic...Devar told mi that she oso gt sad de yi mian one...I tink that even though her outside is veri cold but actualli she gt a flame inside her...means that onli when u are toking abt her passion, her beloved things then she will start toking and smiling...well seems that I have done nth lehz haha...nth I have sae I have done it hahaha.....I tink will be cuttin my hair by this weekend bah cuz Randy havent yet confirm wif mi...I ltr going to fusionX paying my fees...













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Eps 27- Practices that lead to improvements

Wah todae...todae is the dae that Randy told mi that I have gt a breakthrough in my singing...and Cheng Yao sae that he likes my new voice...Guys let mi tell u something...my voice is OUT haha I have gt a new voice and I sing my style liao...haha finalli...I m so happy todae...but still gt one big prob....my pitching=(...still cant made it...but nvm I told myself liao I in 1 wk can find my new voice that means I in 1 week can tune my pitching from bad to still okay first...guys thnks for all the encouragements pls let mi kno hu u are so that IF my EP is out ar den I will give u guys a free copy + my signature...k thnks Ting yun esp giving lots and lots of encouragement and thnks =) [dunnoe hu are u but if can maybe u can tell mi ur name] for the advices...tnks Joyling for ur suggestions and ur recommendation for hairstylist...but Randy is introing mi his hairstylist sorrie but I still wan the add to ur recommended hairstylist thnks...haha...Read her blog juz nw she's sick...haha I knew it..cuz she gt sae in her blog that her throat is dry and itch...that's the syptoms of sore throat...guess her's is quite serious cuz she ase it affect her hearing...even though she would nv read my blog but still take care of ur health k sasa...













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Eps 26- Practice practice and practice!!!

Todae was at sch did lots of circuit things and nearly blinded by resistors diodes and I even took a inductor and think that it's a resistor lor wat the fuck!!! haha lucky found out or else my PBIL gone ar...haha this few daes was some happy daes and I will stay that way and listen to others le rather I tok...dne todae do some vocal exercises todae but my voice still cant be out when I sing songs but it came out when I was doing the yawn thing den I realised that it's can onli come out when I m doing a note...haiz the prob is getting worst...haiz I suddenly found out that gd guys are always being bullied la haha haiz I tink most guys gt the same prob as Ian la hmmmm that's his privacy let's nt reveal anything haha...the post are gtting shorter kno y...cuz I din dream of her tis past few weeks le can sae is finalli can focus on my career le...I kno everithing I put everithing away for whom I like...one word from her and well I will be there but this time I realli wan to do something for myself le...haha everione forgtten abt the LEDS christmas lights le onli Joyling asked mi todae and Sam ask mi how's mi and her le...haha the onli thing I can sae is that she is on moon I m on Earth...means that I onli can watch her from far...haha tink too again haha...gtg byebye













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Eps 25- What if everithing is a dream

Wat if everithing was juz a false hope for mi to sink deep inside and nv be in rightful mind again...Wat if I failed...Wat if I cant improve...Wat if I cant find my voice...Wat if there's no 5 yrs ltr...Wat if I m going to die tml...Wat if everione ard mi is juz jking wif mi...Wat if I cant fulfil wat I m made for...can someone ans my ques...Life is unpredictable but how I can be so hopeful and full of confidence to fulfil my dreams when everione is having the same dreams...wat does I have and the rest dun have...do I realli have talents....I realli dunkno...no one told mi that before nt even my family...do I reallli have natural rhythms for songs...haiz I realli dunkno...I realli dunkno...but I tink the onli way to find out is to step into the future where no ones kno wat will happen...haiz I will strive towards my dreams de...becuz 我依然是我....













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Eps 24- Things are going inhuman like....

Ytd went to watch AVP2...I personally feel that as the story progresses ar it has similarity with Resident Evil2....haiz ytd oso dunkno y lost Johnson's thumbdrive and I din even feel guilty lor...m I going inhuman??? or m I going though another growing process.....haha todae was quite a gd dae dun kno y it's juz my feeling lehz quite light todae that's y and this week there will be alot of tests ar still gt lots of things haven done dunnoe how....M I feeling stress for the first time of my life becuz of 2 exams at the time???? Maybe becuz sch is veri diff liao but still gt to manage Vocals but I m still veri happy and glad that I take up vocals cuz it realli give mi a lot of knowledge haha Even though my ren yuan nt gd but I cant do anything tll my character improves haha.....have tot of how many ppl would be attending ur funeral??? I cant imagine how little that might be haha....













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Eps 23- I m such a disappointment!!!

Todae went to FusionX....was late cuz of payaya milk la...den saw Les, Randy and Calvin...den in the class nth much lor juz feel that lesson was so quick over todae and everione wait for Randy to come back and he give us some advices on our singing lor...hmmmm den after that he told mi that Les actualli wan to write mi a song...I m shocked...Randy told mi that actualli I have talents and Les tink that I have potentials...Randy oso sae that it's disappointing lor cuz I improved veri slowly and he sae that I have this attitude when I m singing songs...hmmmm ya u have guessed it's over-confidence...he oso told mi this if u wan to be somebody even after the world tour concert...u have gt to grow and learn....I feel veri sad rite nw cuz I realli dun worth the time for Les to write mi a song...den what abt the rest...sebbie and royston and vic...if he write for mi how can I ans towards them....hmmmmm I realli feel veri sian nw lor...dreams and frens and mentor...I realli wan to improve I wan to go Taiwan I wan to fulfil my dreams I wan I realli wan so I will start my hardwork nw and will nt stop till I gt my techniques and voice correct....













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Eps 22- New Year!!! 2008!!

TOdae is the first dae of 2008....hmmmm fro 0000 till nw is abt 0730 like tat I m awake....I went out to count down hmmmm quite crowded and I found something veri weird is y the bangelas can repeat the whole thing they have done yr after yr it's so damn borring lor keep spraying the foam at ppl that walk past them haiz o0o dunnoe kno y lor den Mi and Zhong yang keep avoiding th ppl den avoid dao we ended up at the middle of the road which have a divider that divide the road ya somehow We ended up there den watch show how they spray la and all...haha quite funny hmmmmm Mi and the guys walked alot[fro esplanade to PS den to Orchard den back to PS den to Bugis den to Central den to Chinatown den we walked back hme]during the Chinatown journey We actualli wanted to stop at Mac and rest one but the Mac is full!!! so we went to Chinatown pt de 7-11 and buy drinks lor haha tok alot I tink I m a nite active person haha.....todae is a nw yr lor so fast gt prob pop up liao dunnoe izzit mean that my career thi yr gt alot of obstacles ar hahaha...tink too much again....but I willl nt give up lor no matter wat I will fulfil my dreams u guys too k haha Happy New Year......













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