Eps 47- Nth can be done no more!!!

TO ppl that kno mi well............well I doubt anyone will kno mi well........have anyone ever noticed that when I m being out done...I became nth den started nt toking...Is nt I dun wan to tok is I chu le ke yi ran ren xiao.....I hai ke yi zuo she mo....u guys sae de things oso nt my topic....wat can I do???I believe everitime I dim dim den ppl start asking mi y like tis y like tat....but I always sae nth la....even if I sae oso no use...u all can do it mehz....In my life...No one have ever given mi any support nor encouragement...no one...I remember Shila ask mi y I onli sae sad songs....the reason is becuz I have nv been happy before...when ppl gt probs no matter wat if I can hlp I will hlp....but when I gt prob no one wan to care a damn wif mi....everione is like tat....this is y I tok so much is juz wan u guys care abt mi a bit more nia but no one care a damn....dun sae my friends even my family dun care.....no one notices mi....that's y everitime I count on myself den on others....orh rite wat abt my dreams....haha I bet ppl hu see my blog are ppl that wan to see how stupid and silly m I rite...juz wan to laugh at mi behind my back.....saying that I m doing the impossible....cant anyone give mi any real support and encouragement...I m an average guy I kno...but I dun wan to be like this anymore....if ppl dun care abt mi dun even kno my existence den I tink I will give a damn abt ppl liao....y shld I care so much hlp u so much then after that u all juz treat mi as a person hu is eat glass grow up one....I dun trust anyone no more le.....no person on earth is worth my damn freaking trust....y shld I try to fit into something that is nt my size.....all I did everithing is juz to be notice.....even if abit I oso happy but after all this yrs I realli sian liao....realli sian liao.....Lawson, Sam and Daryll u all died or drop out for the course is ur own business liao u wan to play that match or nt is nt a concern liao no pt....when u all are juz trying to pei he mi nia....I realli m disappointed at u all....each and everione of u all....Sam and Lawson both have same pattern...so they died their business....As for Daryll I oso dun kno y u angry wif Ian lor...wat's the pt lor...u are an outsider in their relationship...wat u angry over such small things lehz...u angry liao they be back togther mehz.....This is my last advice to U all 3 liao as for the rest of the ppl hu kno mi...nono is ppl hu kno my name....I will change my talkative ways liao...no pt continuing trying to gt ppl to notice when these ppl dun even care a damn abt u!!! no pt!!!








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Eps 46- WTF!!!

Todae's maths' exams was fairly easy....all of it I can do except for the last ques haha 5 marks one....I was abit sianed-out when yesterdae de her was nt at FC4 toddae cuz wan to gt her no. one first time I gt initiative go take ppl's no. hor.....den nvm somemore the wed's friendly is near den somemore out of 5 ppl 4 bears grudge against the other......haiz oso dunno how to settle...and dunnoe how to perform that dae ar...somemore when I call Randy todae tell him my decision then he sae that I need to tell him a month notice to quit the course and he sae that he told us that this 6 months course...we cant quit....lol...den he sae abt wat integrity of the students and nt fair to students and the teacher.....if I m the person I m before I worked in Fisher I will definitely nt quit and continue the 2 months but nw I will onli take one step back nia...becuz to mi I dun wan to do things that I cant confirm my improvement in my singing....so I decided since he wan one month notice I will juz stay for a month....I will hold on to watever my dreams and will definitely wan cheng it cuz I have nv been this selfish and nt thought of ppl's feelings...so todae I will be selfish even if ppl tink of mi as someone no integrity...








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Eps 45- Exams todae!!!

Todae is 23 June 08---OOP exams todae....dunno wat will come out lehz the past yr ppr quite easy lehz but dunno todae's de ppr difficult mah...haha tml maths liao...tonite chiong maths lor....tinking abt ACS nw haha...fun when I learned alot by reading ACS's textbk....dunno hu called mi todae...di siao mi nia lor....haiz nows-a-days de ppl ar......haiz todae saw two gals lor quite pretty gt figure...tot she be my fate haha but saw her oso no feeling lehz sia lor....I have gt to keep searching....haha....everione jiayou for the MST lor....








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Eps 44- Exams!!!

Ello everione!!! I had made my decision and have registered with Hank's music loh....even though I had to leave all the ppl I knew in EpicStage Academy but I had to do it....I have to fulfill my dream....haha zhibang met mi yesterdae to register at hank's music den he encourage mi to take up the prep class as to jump stages lor haha actualli I oso nt that confident if I can skip steps mah haha....well we'll see...btw I been toking abt having a gf to accompany mi to watch movie haha veri silly rite haha cuz I nth to do so dun care mi haha.....tml's exams lor....dun tink can score this time cuz din study much juz like last yr's MST 1 like tat....well I will see wat will motivate mi to chiong my studies like last yr but the results muz be better den last yr.....recently found out that as I gt older my mindset realli changed lots sia nt like last time liao nw cared abt ppl's feelings more and can understand things more.....nt as impulsive either in relationships or in terms of treating ppl {hope so bah} haha....my heart dun seeem much like last yr lehz last yr was like wanting to find a gf alot....but this yr even though saw a few my type one but nw to mi no feelings means NO feelings lehz and I wun go intro myslf and do anything to know that gal...nope I wun...I have realli change but still I will search for no.3 one haha hope to meet my no.3 soon........








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Eps 43- My decision!!!

Ello guys!!! I m totally sianed-out todae cuz I myself have faced my own probs in my vocal lessons and I realised that my improvement is nt wat I wanted...I have not much time left...5 yrs de Nov 29th I've gt to gt my concert going...it's my dream....I've always wanted it but my learnin in EpicStage is slowing mi down for my concert...I dunno it's my understanding prob or my teacher's teaching prob but I realised that I have to change either the teacher or my vocal sch....I told Randy juz nw that I m considering changing my environment and he told mi lots of things and asked my vocal classmate , Alicia, she oso tink that if I realli wan to fulfill my dream I shld realli change sch and see if it helps....I have yet to ask Jacky...I wanted to ask them becuz it involve them as my class originally is 4 ppl one den one gone liao become 3 ppl den if I go den they cant continue...I have gt to respect ppl's decisions and gt to pave my way...In my heart, the decision had already been made but I dunwan my decision to affect so many ppl....the sch I considering is HANK's MUSIC zhibang's sch dunnoe wat to do hlphlp....everyone....








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Eps 42 - Life is back!!!

Ello!!!Guys, I so long nv blog lor...haha the reason is becuz I had to do some adjusting for the surrounding ard mi....If u dun understand wat I mean...I juz mean I been tinking everithing abt mi and the ppl that had done something to mi, which changed the way I tink...like humans desires toward own survival more den anything...in order to survive, anything even if it's something against ur own conscience, u will do in it....we humans are definitely veri imperfect at all...I hated my natural abilities sometimes....I learn lots of things in the past few months...esp abt myslf..... I find out that I actualli can read someone actions and kno wat that person is tinking....I learn that actualli I learns new things veri quickly after I become more calm.....but I oso suddenly realised that ppl that survived are ppl with abilities and experience....so I made a promised nt to step into an office after my attachment....I dun wan to hai ren.......last month was the blue month as all the bad habit started to show even more...late for class....nt attending for CA classes....having fun everidae....it seems like I dun care a damn at all to anything....but from todae U WILL NV SEE MI LIKE THIS NO MORE...everithing will be back lor cuz I m mi again an improved mi....a thinking mi and one more thing I forgt to sae tok to mi wif caution cuz I can kno wat ur character is while toking to UR things dun tink I stupid one....ar haha I will start analyze ppl soon...already found my target lor haha of course that person is nt one of my readers la haha......MADA MADA DANE.......













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