Eps 85- Studys are realli a borin work

LOL I chatted wif Miss Zhu till 7am in the mornin lol haha din feel tired cuz she is realli funnny and random haha........I like to tok to her.......cuz made mi go back to sec sch times haha.......den slept at 7am and 9am johnson called mi wake up haha but I told him I juz slp nia lehz so meet at 12 haha den cant play bball cuz rainin den we play da di for 3 hrs- 4 hrs like tat lol sibei lame ar.......we play open hand de lo haha no one play before rite haha.......den we went to play bball for a while and juz go hme cuz Joyling told mi that Joey ask mi to go XW and have dinner wif them lol.......den last min cancel haha den I reach hme bathe liao JIU Zzzzz till 2am haha.........lol den wake up check email la and all den kno tat mon is my ECS exams haha died liao lo haha somemore the MST no solutions de lo haha dunno how to study haha....hhaahaha lol......Stupid teacher......haha Everithing is restartin and life is back to normal......wah so fast holis over liao wor......I whole holis doin nth lo haha....

Eps 84- 自恋

说我爱你
从男人的心里是最难表达诚实的秘密
说你愿意
靠在我肩的你
是最难抗拒动人的回应
你扬起的嘴角
给我爱情的动力
弯弯的眼睛
藏不住你孩子气
看着我在你眼里
眼神是如此肯定
那就是我一直等待着美丽
我承认我爱上你的美
你的脸和你的眉
让我面对自己无法再自恋
oh baby 我承认我爱上你的美
你让全宇宙失眠
让我爱到像流星一样的坠
我才发现
看你泛红的脸
说出模糊的话语
我的心只听见你心里的回音
看着我在你眼睛
眼神是如此肯定
那就是我一直等待着美丽
我承认我爱上你的美
你的脸和你的眉
让我面对自己无法再自恋
oh baby我承认我爱上你的美
你让全宇宙失眠
让我爱到像流星一样的坠
我才发现
睡不能睡
脑海都是你画面oh
幸福帮我剪接你的笑脸
我承认我爱上你的美
你的美没有虚伪
让我爱你爱到忘了我是谁
oh baby因为你我爱上夜的黑
像搭着无人地铁
开向你为我设的专署路线
终于看见
我承认我爱上你的

This song is Show Luo de 自恋 lol I kno alot ppl will sae this song so old liao y the's pt of tellin u all nw rite.....haha when I heard this song and see the song de lyrics ytd that time......I ji tou feel that this song realli suit my situation rite nw......everi sentence everi word all sae out how I feel towards her.......everi sentence reminds mi of her.....well I m startin to forgt lo....I m happy I tink

Eps 83- 4th dae wifout contactin u

Todae is the 4th dae since I din msg u or tok to u on msn.........I still cant control myslf wantin to ask u how are u??? I din see u online for a few daes le..........I dun wanna tink of the worst so I juz wonderin how are u lo?? I kinda of like to eat lunch wif ppl, esp ppl that are trap in r/s probs........I like to hlp them...I like to hear and learn and give my views........and know abt r/s myslf........haha I like the sofa more lo.........I have eaten wif Chen Juan..........Joyling..........hu wanna be nxt haha...........ok I kno...u guys oso kno that I m nt being myslf...well I realli tried to put down cuz too much have happened on mi le.........too much till I onli can feel happiness lo and as for sadness...he may have taken a long vacation...I will be happy everidae de...dun ask mi if she is worth it...dun sae that she is nt as perfect as I tink...alot of things I dunno how sae but I kno she is worth it and I kno she is nt perfect cuz I m nt either...y wld I wan a perfect person when I m nt perfect...喜欢就是喜欢...我真的放不下也放不了...I realli tried u kno...I tot that if I din tok to her if I din see her pics ar I will gradually forgt this person bah but I cant...This few daes when I saw ppl that time esp nt veri tall de...I will tot I see her...I kno I kno I m tinkin too much...but I m nt tinking when it happened...it's like a natural reactions but I cant do anything...juz keep on tryin lo...haha wonderin y I like her so much yet I can stop tokin to her??? haha...Cuz I have 3 reasons:
1st...Is I dun wan her bf to check her hp and all la...cuz hp is realli veri private de stuff lo
2nd...Is I dun wan her to feel that I m naggy and annoying and all lo
3rd...Is I dun wanna her bf and her to quarrel becuz of mi anymore lo
Yup....all 3 reasons are how I can stop tokin to her lo

lol that dae wed ar we celebrate Chen juan's bd but in the end the mornin part onli mi and her.....lol lucky she ok wif it ar...tok to her lo...abt her bf and the recent things lo...den go play pool wif her haha saw deme...lol he tot Chen juan my gf lol...haha
den somemore I went out wif Joyling on Sat for Lunch session...and I saw my vocal teacher, Alex lol died liao lo he will ask if Joyling is my gf mah lol...hmmmm btw I tok to Joyling abt her bf and recent things lo...hmmm lots of ques are thrown ard la...lol well wat can I sae I LOVE LUNCH SESSION HAHA....seriously hu is nxt haha....hu gt r/s prob...my consultant fees are juz nt cheap haha...jkin hehe I onli hope I can help ppl nia...

Eps 82- something's wrong

How come when I m emotionally agitated...the part beside my stomach will have a sharp pain ar.....I tink if it continue I go see doc liao la.......

Eps 81- Knowin wat I wan

Ytd I went lots of places....den I asked her out again and she suddenly din reply mi......the whole dae I sian sian de..........den veri hot tempered.....wat the fuck I m doing and wat the hell have I become or is becoming..........I m freaking obsess wif her liao la.....is like dun have her I will died like tat......lol...........I totalli forgtten y I like her in the first place....and nw after I have step back a few steps le I see the overview........I kno wat I wan nw...........I dunno if she like mi...I dunno even if she likes mi she will break wif her bf mah........I dunno alot of stuffs becuz somethings cant be known juz by tinking or using feelings........at the start of the race....I alr could see the results of the race le but in the end I stil wan to be part of it...........I oso dunno y......but I finalli understood wat I wan I wan her to be happy.......no matter wat she do who she choose.........as long as she is happy can le............as for mi I lost my wisdom and tinking ability in the process................I kno y I wld be so obsess wif her...............becuz I tink that she might one dae tell mi to forgt abt her.........that's y I wanted to cherish everi chance that I can see her, hlp her, or make her happy............but in the end I m tooo selfish liao lo I din kno that becuz of all this she is feelin pressurize by mi..........lol it's time to look into the reality liao........haha no worries my mood nw is more relax den ever cuz I m doing wat I shld have done in the start......I wun give up cuz I promised myslf nt to give up no matter wat even if I m being rejected in the end which have a higher chance la but I wun have any regret cuz I have done the best that I have done liao lo I m silly, aint I ..........

Eps 80- There can be miracle when u believed

This past few daes I been veri emo.......Esp after the msg thing.....Sun, Mon, Tues....all gt emo dao lo..............Sunday I realli veri emo cuz I realli veri sad liao den somemore my hairdresser take leave lol....cant vent my frustration on my hair.......lol............den Joyling and Z.yan and Joey all acc mi and cheer mi up lo...........haha when we eatin dinner going to go hme liao de I start to sae abit lame things.....but Mon I oso the same sian sian de..........Saw her at MRT....1048am.....u kno y I can remember the timin cuz I looked at the watch tinking I might see her.....at that time I want to kan dao her but dunno how to face her.....and I saw her lo....she din see mi I walked veri quickly to avoid her lo...................den when I play bball that time Daryll saw my sian sian face ask mi wat did 4+ do to mi lol.......I sae nth.............hhaha den tues after I went to FC 5 after my first lesson....I saw her...she din see mi and I straight away hide in bangdeli lo....lol............I tell joyling I saw her...........den joyling walked up to her.......she tell joyling that the msg is her bf want her to send de...........she din have the intention to do it de lo.........den she told joyling she din explain to mi is becuz her bf confiscate her hp after that lol..........den even though I happy abit...maybe alot la but I kno things still doesnt change..........then tues nite mi, joyling, Z.yang and Joey we went to Kovan to pass her bd gift......her bf was wif her.....lucky I ask joyling they all to give her lo...........she din see mi again lol...........12 midnite I went to kovan to pass her her gift lehz..........lol if ppl kno mi well de ar will kno that in my life I have nv do such things before lo...........so can see I realli like her alot de......den thurs I sent her hme.....veri funny lo everione is like telling mi she likes mi............but I cant feel any..........but sometimes I does feel that she is interested in mi but sometimes I dun...........Joyling sae de correct...I m using too much of my head liao.........muz use more of my heart more..................somemore when I buy the gift that time like fated like tat lo.........I buy the locker is last one liao den somemore her fave colour..........haha so qiao lo..........den went in a shop.........the song goes" there can be miracle when u believed" lol den I realli awake liao lo............I believed tat as long as I try my best there will be a miracle de...........I told z.yang I feel that she is the one I been waitin for lo.........I realli hope she is that One la...........cuz the obstacles are realli cant solved de lo den suddenly truth is out lo..........I dunno if any more things are going to happen mah but I onli can sae I will hold on to her.........I will give everithing I have in order to see that she is safe, healthy, happy.......yup haha a bit too serious le hor hhaaa ps....but this is how I feel lo............and doing things for her I found out that I have gd frens that are willing to wait for mi when I buying and doing the present and acc mi to send her hme ar and hlp mi up when I down.............THnks all that hlp mi and esp Joyling she helped mi alot....and she hlped mi to wrap the present cuz I dun kno how to wrap lol........haha thnks I realli m gladful I meet u BITES, cuz I din meet u I wun like u if I din like u I wun found frens that are wiling to do things for mi.......thnks I have alot of gd frens nw............I will thnks everione when I see them haha........

第七十九集-- 这一秒我哭了

不知道是不是上天玩我。。。我不喜欢的时候她是单身的。。。到了我真的喜欢了她就有男朋友了。。。。。。我到底是不是欠你的。。你要这样玩我。。。。我不玩了好吗放过我好吗。。。我求你啦。。我真的受够了。。。难道我所经历还不够吗。。。你给了我希望却在我相信这希望的时候。。。。给了我失望。。。难道我不知道我不该喜欢她吗。。。。有没有人可以告诉我。。。喜欢一个人有错吗。。。。我比谁都清楚被人抢去感受好不好。。。。