So long nv blog lo.......it's like one month ago(my last entry), I still miss her....she is that kind of person that will be missed by anyone cuz she is a realli gd fren....she will be and forever is my fren...my gd fren.....dun be mistaken she is nt dead yet juz that she's takin her O's....in this last month many things happened....things that revolved ard mi actualli changed mi....changed my opinion towards relationships...changed my opinion towards life....towards goals...in this few months I learn alot....from my grandpa's death..to sijia de incident....to even boonmay....
dun kno if anyone notice from my grandpa's death...I changed in terms of hidin my feelings in front of ppl....I cried for the first time in front of my relative and family...ever since I m hmmmm in primary bah I guess...
As for sijia's incident.....this is the first time tat I actuali can sae that I loved her....others maybe like.....when everything happens I juz dunno wat to do...I m juz stunned and shock of the things I heard from her....even till now I still cant totalli forgt her....
as for boon may.....it's like someone above is givin mi hope towards life after he/she has taken my everything away....Boon may is my smile...it's like after I kno her I found my smile, my laughter back after all the things happened....
Ppl that kno mi veri long will kno that I looked forward to a romantic and cosy relationship....but all this incidents change my perspective of lookin at it...somehow I realised relationship...I cant handled it yet...I cant nt because I m nt ready for it....but becuz the things ard mi are nt ready for it.....but for mw I dun wan to have a relationship yet cuz I wan to improve and focus on wat I m doing...I wan to excel in everything....everything that happen have made mi distracted in every single things I have done....my grades are faling...I dun wanna win in bball games....I lost my wisdom...lost myself...I lose to fate......so I have got to pull myslf tgt...I have greater things to achieve....nth's gonna block my way anymore...
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