Eps 81- Knowin wat I wan

Ytd I went lots of places....den I asked her out again and she suddenly din reply mi......the whole dae I sian sian de..........den veri hot tempered.....wat the fuck I m doing and wat the hell have I become or is becoming..........I m freaking obsess wif her liao la.....is like dun have her I will died like tat......lol...........I totalli forgtten y I like her in the first place....and nw after I have step back a few steps le I see the overview........I kno wat I wan nw...........I dunno if she like mi...I dunno even if she likes mi she will break wif her bf mah........I dunno alot of stuffs becuz somethings cant be known juz by tinking or using feelings........at the start of the race....I alr could see the results of the race le but in the end I stil wan to be part of it...........I oso dunno y......but I finalli understood wat I wan I wan her to be happy.......no matter wat she do who she choose.........as long as she is happy can le............as for mi I lost my wisdom and tinking ability in the process................I kno y I wld be so obsess wif her...............becuz I tink that she might one dae tell mi to forgt abt her.........that's y I wanted to cherish everi chance that I can see her, hlp her, or make her happy............but in the end I m tooo selfish liao lo I din kno that becuz of all this she is feelin pressurize by mi..........lol it's time to look into the reality liao........haha no worries my mood nw is more relax den ever cuz I m doing wat I shld have done in the start......I wun give up cuz I promised myslf nt to give up no matter wat even if I m being rejected in the end which have a higher chance la but I wun have any regret cuz I have done the best that I have done liao lo I m silly, aint I ..........